What is what

Summer is almost overrrr.

All of my trips were so great. Got to see so many of my girls and new places and made me love going home so much more.

I started organizing my classroom but really need the expertise of my Mother and luckily she lives right down the street and works right down the hall from me. 

I say this and then think about everything that's been bothering me.

I have never moved away from home.

I have a job, WHICH IS A BLESSING, WHICH I AM ENTIRELY GRATEFUL FOR, but is this what I'm going to be doing forever? That's all planned out and that's boring.

I would really like to live with my boyfriend. We have been together for 4 and a half years now; but I know he will be ready when he's ready and I just need patience.

Elizabeth called off her wedding; which makes me feel weird about love because I thought they were so happy together. My best friend is not a very good example of love either...but

I am breathing. My family is all healthy. I am loved. I HAVE A PUPPY! Well, I'm fostering a doggie from the shelter that I renamed Luna and I love her so much. A dog is a lot of work but I am willing and able to do it, so why not?

Most of my summer goals were partially or mostly met. Some entirely even. I think I need some kind of medication that forces me to not think so much about the future; but applying for Teach for America and researching different cities to move to just doesn't allow me to focus entirely on the present. It will all work out. I will figure out what is what and where it all falls into place. It's ok to question myself right? So long as those that understand how particular I am don't run away at my bitchiness. So long as they still love me.